Death, Suicide, and Emotional Healing & Support
In February 2021, two days after my birthday, we were told that my manager at the Hypnotherapy school I work virtually for had ended his life.
At 28 years old, David was vibrant, full of life and encouragement, coming across like a supportive friend than a boss. He made my time working virtually, isolated in my house, with a seven hour time difference to him and most of my fellow staff seem inclusive. And whatever dialect of his English accent made him that much funnier and lighter to me.
He was an active futbol player, had moved into his first house, and was expecting his first baby with his girlfriend.
In the months leading up to his transition to spirit, he was experiencing some very odd health issues - seemingly made more difficult to identify with the surge of Covid.
The day I found out, I was completely in shock, and enveloped in grief. Brian, my partner, was supposed to go out of town to work that weekend, and insisted now I come along with him - which I eagerly agreed.
Sitting then alone in a hotel room in Chicago while Brian worked, I could feel this grief consume me. I could feel my energy slipping into the body of David’s girlfriend and seemed bottomless.
That night, I also had a Rapid Transformational Therapy (RTT) session scheduled with a woman David's same age to help identify and heal the root of her suicidal feelings - that although had subsided from a few years ago, were still haunting.
I knew I had to pull myself together to have any chance at supporting this woman.
There, alone in a hotel room, I connected with support from all over the world… the UK, across America, before connecting that night with my client in Asia.
Through the comfort I received, the best support and guidance came from my medium friend Wendy Terry who wrote a book called, The Different Levels of Death and Suicide. Her experiences with the healing and connecting to the physical and spiritual world helped give me a peaceful understanding about our soul contracts, roles, and how that influences the experiences of our human lives and our soul journeys. Although, it is not to be revealed or fully understood by my human mind the reasons for this experience in David’s life and transition, it helped me reel back my energy to my role in this situation and focus on the message I could learn and experience from it.
For well over a year after his transition, I kept our weekly meeting booked into my work calendar, and used that time to send him and his family loving thoughts, perhaps ask for guidance and support at work, and have an intentional time of connection.
My client session on healing her suicidal thoughts that night was one of the most beautiful sessions I have ever had. It is often hard to relay the understandings shared by emotions and inner guidance, but for her the suicidal thoughts were intended to help her notice and appreciate the beauty of life and how much she is loved. We were able to clear or straighten out the intention of those feelings, to clear the negative, depressing feelings that came along with it, and just open the portal to receiving and feeling supported and loved - as her inner guidance / soul / source energy / God wanted her to know and feel. Once cleared, the outpourings of love and support from her inner guidance to her mind/human self was SO beautiful, we were both covered in happy tears.